end of temp work and hopes of good kissing

MY TIME.. IS ALMOST THROUGH... LITTLE LEFT TO DO...

Yep, I'm almost done with my temp job. It's my last of three days and I have less than ten minutes left. Here I am typing and watching people leave. I've organized my stuff so I'm ready to pick up and go in a few minutes. Today I joined a few unique dating sites. Why do I do this, even when I know I rarely have good feelings about my potentials of finding a good match on a dating site? I'm just so curious and little hopeful, I guess.
Six more minutes. Probably a good time to use the bathroom.
I would say for the last few weeks my emotional intensity has not been as extreme-especially noticeable with the more difficult or painful emotions. Is it the escitalopram? I think that's definitely possible, though hard to know for sure. It is a mild relief - this ability to bounce back far more easily from difficult internal states.

What makes a good kiss? And when will I have another one?
During lunch time today, after finishing eating, I put my head down and half-napped. In my waking nap I recalled all the people I've kissed on the mouth, in a sexual or romantic kind of way. It's probably around 20-30 people, mostly male. More than half of those I really did not experience as being a "good" kisser". Last night I had at least one dream involving making out with someone. His lips were soft, fluffy, smooth, evenly moist, airy in a way. Gentle, sensitive, intelligent, careful. This is a good kiss. Also, attraction is important... I have kissed a fair amount of people I wasn't even attracted to - genuinely. maybe I wanted to be attracted to them or thought I might become attracted to them later on. There's a small handful of people I've kissed with whom I really had a positive experience. Who comes to mind now? Luke, Isaac, maybe Adam, maybe... 1 or 2 others. Yeah that's it. I want it to be GOOD. I want to kiss...